Assignment 3 Tutor Feedback and Reflection

Assignment 3 Feedback from Tutor


Overall I was pleased with the feedback and agreed with the main point that he made which was that the editing of the final set of images was too diverse and needed rethinking.  “It feels like there are various strategies being used within your project.”  There were definitely too many images and I can see now, with time, that the running order is not as strong and I have made some inconsistent choices in the ones that I put in.   I intend to revisit it and revise some of my choices, and possibly reshoot some to bolster the main theme.

He also suggested that I include contact sheets, something that had been my intention but was simply an oversight.

He picked up on the decision to do a grid of eight images, four of Kelley practising her posing and four of her at the competition in similar positions.

You have moved away from the reportage style with this sequence, it’s actually a separate visual strategy and `I feel this sequence would stand alone.  There is a uniformity and consistency to the framing and presentation, which I find interesting; the grid could work as large images within an exhibition environment. It would be good if you had reflected on this, why did you make the decision to present it as a grid?

I did not set out with the intention of presenting it like this, it came about once I had done the shoot and was editing the sequence of photographs.  Part of the competition is the compulsory section where the contestants must present themselves to the judges in set style so front, one side, back, other side.  Each one is prompted by the phrase ‘quarter turn to the right’ at which they turn then set up the pose until to move again.  It involves every muscle being tensed and held, and sometimes their breath.  The idea is that this shows off their definition to the best advantage.  At practise, obviously I did not know this but stood behind her while she went through it several times.  At the competition, all tanned and made up, she went through it all again and it came together.  When I came to deciding how best to present this, it made sense to put them in a row so there was a consistency in the movement from one move to another.  And then I saw it in the show images so did another set that corresponded to the pale set.  I cropped each photograph so that they were the same size and shape and put them in order.  The only difference was that there was not one of her relaxed at the show, hence the front image of her with her hands up but I think that added another dimension to the set as it rooted her in show mode not just practise where she didn’t smile at all.  The intention was to compare and contrast her poses, to show that practising is important as this can decide her placings on the day.

The final set of images was assembled in Photoshop to get the sizing of the images right and to be able to place them in an ordered manner.  I chose a dark background to make them stand out more because the top set are of her with very pale skin, the lower of her with much darker skin.  It made sense to have them in one image rather than as eight separate images, as the overall total would have been huge. I must admit that I particularly likes this as an image and the ordered nature of it with the comparisons.  Like a before and after image.

On the image “Definition”, a shot of just Kelley’s arm against a black background:

The definition shot of the arm and hand again has a different feel, it’s more ambiguous and poetical. The image works due to the minimal composition on the black background, it’s very graphic. This visual approach could be a methodology on its own, the project could consist of a series of images like this, and this would identify a consistent visual language.”

This came about after I had looked at the idea of combining images of Kelley with those of vegetables, to try to suggest a link between physique and the diet that it takes to create and maintain it.  I cropped a competition image to single out her arm with the lovely shot of the hand open and a silvery bracelet on her wrist, feminising the masculine muscle of her arms.  In the event, merging her with vegetables didn’t turn out as I thought even though it produced some interesting results, but they just didn’t work.  After Chris suggested looking at this as a separate series, I went through the competition images and cropped them to produce a set of her arms, legs and back.  The quality isn’t brilliant, mainly due to shooting from a distance and then cropping the photos to produce the desired result so I am taking a small part of a larger picture.  However, choosing a part of her body to focus on has produced an interesting set of pictures that are, as Chris Coekin says, poetical.  It would be a very interesting experiment to get her in a studio and repeat this but doing it properly so that the images are better quality to really show the definition in her physique.

Overall I can see there is something to work on as the underlying idea is solid.  Editing has always been a weakness that I need to address, and it has been evident in all my assignments so far.  I have too many images and not enough clarity.  I will be looking to make that approach stronger and more streamlined.





Assignment 3 Tutor Suggested References

Martin Schoeller:

I had actually come across some of these images while searching the internet for some to compare my experience.  I wasn’t sure if he was a recognised photographer or not.  His work covers the extreme end of women’s bodybuilding and there is a tension in the work between the supermuscular bodies and the female faces at the top. He does portraits of the women from mid torso upwards, taking in the tops of their arms and more importantly the fact that they are wearing bikini tops which is the first indication that this is a female body rather than a man’s.  The torso is highly muscled and darkly tanned, often with prominent veins so the eye roves this to make sense of it before moving up to the face and eyes.  Each subject engages directly with the camera, sometimes with a smile and this is where the viewer questions what they are seeing as the faces are female with make-up and long hair.  The images are unsettling but also make you marvel at the work involved in getting to this stage in body development.  His work does make you look at your own response to the image of a woman who to all intents and purposes looks male, and how society conditions us to react when they do not correspond to what we expect. There is also the expectation that they will still try be attractive as women ‘should’ be by having heavy make-up and jewellery as well as sparkly ornate bikinis.  I found it interesting to see my reaction to them too, I found them unnerving and was disappointed that I could not see the beauty in them.  There was a disproportion to them, with huge bodies and tiny heads.  In my defence, I would think and feel the same about males who were similar in size.  I suppose that makes me the archetypal person who thinks it is ok as long as it is within reasonable limits.



Tanya Habjouqa “Fragile Monsters”

This work was much more interesting because it was not just a series of portraits that were all the same.  This was more reportage style as she captured the men backstage preparing to compete so there were more candid shots rather than posed pictures.  The competitiveness is very evident with sideways glances, something that I observed when I attended the competitions that Kelley was in and there was a break.  All the competitors came outside to be re-tanned, tidied up, or just practice and talk with family and friends.  It was interesting to see that a lot of them kept to themselves while others gathered in groups.  You could tell them in the coffee shop as they were the crowd that wore tracksuits and were unnaturally dark brown!  In her series, Habjouqa captured the nuances of their relationships and gave some idea of the mental and physical lengths that these men will go to in order to get the physique that they desire. The difference with this set of images was also that the men looked small and were not over-trained, even in the larger categories.   There was a lot of pathos about the competition and what they were doing, it made them more human.


Both photographers were interesting and I could appreciate the portraits but preferred the reportage series as it tapped into the human aspect of it, that these were men with families and friends.  The portraits were strangely detached and difficult to connect with, for reasons I have given above.  It is a fascinating subject and while I am slightly repulsed by it, I am also drawn to it to understand why they do this, the psychology of bodybuilding.


Assignment 3 – Looking through the Window

Assignment 3 – Mirror or Window

Mirror or window, the choice was not easy and eventually I ended up overlapping the two concepts to merge them.  The starting point suggested itself as I had been thinking about doing it on the gym that I go to regularly.  In addition, I was aware that my Pilates teacher Kelley was preparing to defend her title in the British National Bodybuilding Federation competition. There are several categories and she competed in the Master Over 40 Figure, coming 2nd in the UK heats then overall champion at the World Final in 2016.  It was a matter of ‘now or never’ as the competition heats were in September and the assignment began.  She actually competed in two different federations, the BNBF and the Natural Bodybuilding Federation, and I attended both shows, with some trepidation as I had never watched anything like this before.

Bodybuilding is something that I was aware of but knew nothing about, and I knew Kelley only through seeing her at the gym and at the Pilates class.  She was very keen to help me and spent time talking to me about food, exercise, approach to competitions, gym work and work.  These conversations carried on over the course of a couple of months while we discussed her views, her outfit, what she had to do and eventually about what it meant to her. This is natural bodybuilding which means no drugs or supplements to enhance performance and is done through diet and exercise alone. It is something that takes over her life and is her life.  I must also point out that she is not the extreme end of bodybuilding – the Physique is the more acceptable end of body building. It struck me that this is that it is a very self-centred thing to do as a huge amount of discipline is involved.  Kelley is hugely motivated and has a rigid schedule of diet and exercise that does not waver, along with teaching her classes.  The diet is very restricted and carefully controlled in terms of the ratios of proteins, fats and carbohydrates while drinking huge quantities of water.

The culmination of a year of diet and exercise is the show, and this is where I struggled with my reaction to it.  There are several categories for ages and type of figure as well as male and female.  It is the showing of the physical form that brought up mixed feelings about what they were doing.  Firstly, the males are about strength and muscularity, and the poses are designed to show this.  They are bare footed and wear briefs, and all are wearing fake tan to a deep brown colour to show the definition of muscle structure.  The females by comparison are in sparkling bikinis and wear high heeled shoes, jewellery and lots of make-up.  They reminded me of the beauty pageants for very young girls in the USA.  The poses are much more feminine and the hands are not to be clenched so to show off arms and upper body they have the hands with fingers pointing upwards.  Males clench their hands.  When requested to do a pose of their choice, males cluster round in a show of strength and semi aggression while females are posed prettily.  This struck me as being a divisive and sexist approach, the females are judged on feminine traits while the males are about power and strength.  It is possible that female bodybuilding challenges gender distinction because ‘physical strength and muscles is equated with maleness and masculinity’ (B. Christine Shea, 2001) but the show appears to be the opposite because there is a distinction in how male and female competitors present themselves.  Females are even judged on how they enter the stage. I was very uncomfortable throughout, from the strange rigid poses to the deep fake tan even on black skins, to the way that the male competitors’ muscle structures were so clearly visible like the diagrams from Biology lessons.  I enjoy weight training but this seemed extreme and bizarre.

The images I took are trying to give a balanced view of her life from being at the gym at all hours and even training though pain, to the pleasure that she has from teaching her Pilates classes.  Her diet is paramount and she carefully controls portions and what she eats to the point that she had some meals prepared for her requirements by a local company who specialise in tailor made plans for people wanting to control their intake.  One conversation about food and cravings led to talking about chocolate and sweet things.  I suggested that one lump might satisfy the craving and she said she could never do that because diet is a balancing act.  If she ate one lump and her weight changed or she didn’t feel that she was defined enough, it would affect her mind-set and she would blame the chocolate then berate herself for weakness.  So, the one lump is on a pedestal above all the good things that are usual snacks.  Her outfit is special to her, the heels and her personalised bikini covered in hand-sewn sparkles, that comes in a special box for transporting.  I did one shoot of her in the studio while she practised her set moves wearing the bikini, something that she was a little reticent about as she doesn’t like exposing herself until show day.  The photographs from the show have been chosen to illustrate the competition within her own group and then contrast with how the men present themselves.  The women are in heels and it changes the dynamics, as well as the open hands versus the clenched fists.

I started experimenting with merges in Photoshop while thinking about the diet and exercise routines, merging vegetables with images of Kelley’s body.  My thinking was that diet is of supreme importance and because she is a natural bodybuilder, it is part of her.  Overlaying vegetables with her body I was looking at the texture and lay of the vegetable to reflect the definition in her muscles.  They were interesting to do but I was also disappointed with the results as they seemed a little trite and banal.  Only one really worked enough to include in the final selection.  The one that I liked the most was the multi-coloured one where I experimented with changing it to negative so it came out in bright blues and purples. That was much more interesting but I felt that it did not go with the overall look of the narrative.

Does the assignment work as a narrative about a subject I was unfamiliar with at the beginning? I think it goes some way to explaining what it means to Kelley to be a natural bodybuilder.  She is in effect an athlete and trains heavier than the average gym goer, myself included.  There is a thread of following the same person through her training, her food and her work to the moment when she has to present herself in sparkling bikini and heels to the judges and all onlookers.  There is a comparison between Kelley practising in her outfit in her studio and then on stage so there is progression.  Overall I feel there is more that could be done to round it out but given the time available, I have covered the main points.  This is a wide subject and very personal and so more of her home life as well as interaction with other competitors would have added depth to the subject.  At the time of shooting the competition, I had only just started on the journey and did not have the confidence to approach people outside.  I think it would be different now having spent more time with Kelley and I would be able to use her to link with others, and that would open the assignment out much more.  This is an individual sport but they can support one another through online contact.  Overall it works, and I am relatively pleased with the result seeing that it took me so long to get to grips with the idea.




A view of nude model by an MA student at Falmouth University:

Suggested by Helen Sear as comparison:


General reading about bodybuilding:

  • Shea, B. Christine. “The Paradox of Pumping Iron: Female bodybuilding as resistance and compliance.” Women and Language, vol. 24, no. 2, 2001, p. 42+. Academic OneFile, Accessed 2 2018.
  • Suffolk, Mark T. “Professional female bodybuilding: self-determination theory approach.” Journal of International Women’s Studies, vol. 16, no. 3, 2015, p. 71+. Academic OneFile, Accessed 2 Feb. 2018.
  • Felkar, V. “Marginalized Muscle: Transgression and the Female Bodybuilder”Article. Ignite, vol.4, no.1, p.40-49. Academic Accessed 2 Feb 2018.


Assignment 3 – Analysis of Outcome

  1. Demonstration of Technical & Visual Skills

I have used a variety of cameras to complete this assignment, from my mobile phone to a DSLR.  The phone photos of the outside of the gym allow an everyday feel to it and everyone carried phones with them in the gym, to record times, speeds and workouts.  I used the DSLR at the second competition and the lighting was kinder than I am used to indoors and so they are clearer than normal.  Lighting continues to be problematic as I suffer from camera shake and in low levels of lighting I have to up the ISO in order to get a decent shutter speed.  Most of the times that I was shooting this, I used available light – flash is not appropriate in competition time – except for the still life set ups when I used small continuous lights to light them.  There is a combination of still life setups to demonstrate parts of the process that are important and define Kelley’s ambition.  There are no posed portraits, they were done as happening to capture the feeling of her getting on with the job in hand and shutting out everything else.  In the gym, teaching her class and posing on stage are all things that she does on her own and has to concentrate, be at the top of her game and give it her all.

  1. Quality of Outcome

I took what I knew about – the gym – and extended it to an activity that I knew nothing about beyond my own perceptions of bodybuilding.  I got to know Kelley and was in conversation about her goal to retain her title while also getting to understand what is involved in her daily life in order to do this.  There is a background to the competition show that illustrates a commitment to lots of exercise, good food intake while working in the fitness industry.  The story could have benefitted from fleshing out into more personal territory but time did not allow that level of knowledge.  In addition, it was difficult to illustrate my reaction to the competition show and how uncomfortable it made me feel. Overall though I think it fits the brief.

  1. Demonstration of Creativity

I started looking at montages in Assignment 2 and was quite keen to bring this in.  The two montages of the exterior of the gym help to show that this is not just a daytime activity, it is dark and light, rain or shine, early morning and late nights.  There were some images created in Photoshop that were interesting but did not fit the overall look and feel of the narrative. However, I kept in one that I had done with Kelley and the vegetables, to show that she is inseparable from her diet. I enjoyed doing the still life food shots and this is something I may well pursue on a personal level.  These were more creative than the portraiture as the lighting could be more carefully controlled as well as having time to move around still subjects.  The images of the studio and gym fit the narrative, and helps to show that Kelley works to help other people as well as concentrating on her own exercise.  She suffers from back pain and sometimes this shows as she rests.  The headphones are her way of blocking out the world to concentrate and makes it a very solitary activity.  It is gym etiquette that if a person is wearing headphones, they are not to be engaged in conversation.

  1. Context

The assignment is a window into the world of a female bodybuilder who competes in regular competitions.  Kelley has always trained in a gym, has been a gym instructor running exercise classes and now teaches Pilates full time.  She took up natural bodybuilding at the age of 42 and worked her way up to win the title in 2016 for her class, the Masters Over 40.  Her time is structured to train for the show each year, and her diet and routines are strictly controlled.  The show is her chance, and all the bodybuilders, to show off their hard work.  She is actually very shy about being seen in her bikini when not competing, although she allowed me to photograph her wearing it while practising her compulsory poses in the run up to competition.

I train regularly in the same gym but I did not know her very well before I approached her and asked to follow her while she prepared for the competition in September and October 2017.  My perception of bodybuilding was of huge muscled men and women, and talking to Kelley about her reasons for doing it and the different classes of physique was fascinating.  It did not stop my reaction to it at show time as one of discomfort as there were undercurrents of inequality and sexism that did not sit easily.  I would have liked more time to dig deeper and speak to other competitors but that may be something that I complete in time.

  1. Overall

As a window on an unknown activity, I hope that I have managed to give an idea of what goes into the training for a major competition for a female bodybuilder.  There is a variety of images that follow her preparation and occasionally a view of behind, such as the one in the gym where she is covering her face. Technically some of the images are not pin sharp but I used a variety of cameras to gain the images that I needed as well as lighting conditions.  I am aware of this and I am working on it.  It would have benefitted from more in depth work if time had allowed it.  While it was challenging to capture the feel of what happens on the road to competition, it was interesting to have another view of the gym and my place in it.  It can be a solitary activity and possible to be in a crowd on your own, but it is also something that brings people together. I do not want to do body building but I understand the pull of having a challenge to work towards, even if it appears to be one that is outside the realms of ‘normal’.

Assignment 3 Images

Winners 2000
Winners 2000
2 Day and Night
Day and Night


3 Positive Thinking
Positive Thinking


Her Own Soundtrack




Keep Going


Good Food
Food Fit


Meals for the Day


The good and the bad
The Good and the Bad


Pilates Teacher
Pilates Teacher


Correct Posture
Correct Posture




Show Shoes
Show Shoes
Posing Practice
Posing Practice


Show Bikini
Show Bikini




A Quarter Turn
Quarter Turn to the Right


Carrying Case
Carrying Case


19 Wish Me Luck
Wish Me Luck


Practice and Showtime
Practice versus Showtime


Clenched Fists
Clenched Fists


Loose Fingers
Open Fingers


23 Favourite Pose
Favourite Pose


Open Hands


25 First Place
First Place
26 Winner Over 40s
Winner Over 40s

Before I get to posting Assignment 3

It has been a long haul for this assignment as I have suffered from lack of motivation and any desire to complete the task in hand.  I admit that I have not been clear enough in deciding which aspect to cover, mirror or window, and actually I feel that I am not any nearer as I complete the shooting for the assignment at this stage.  I had to start it early and started shooting a series of images in late September after my initial thoughts.  It was always going to be gym based because that is what I do with a lot of my time, but there was an opportunity to see a different side to one aspect of training in the gym.  I go to a Pilates class regularly and the instructor competes in bodybuilding competitions, and in 2017 was the current holder of the trophy for her class for the British National Bodybuilding Federation, Masters Physique category.  At the qualifier for the finals, she came in 3rd place.  She also competed for the Natural Physique Association, winning the Masters Physique for the qualifying round and went on to come third in the national championship.  I went to watch both shows and took cameras with me as I was aware that this was a once a year opportunity and if I decided to go forward with this then I needed action shots on stage.  I went to the first show on my own and it was a massive culture shock to me.  It was loud, noisy and bright.  The audience were encouraged to support their family or friends competing by clapping, whistling, shouting out and cheering.  Then there are the tans and the outfits.  The deep fake tan varied between competitors from deep and even to patchy and streaky, while one man had done his whole body except for his face.  His pale skin and blond hair looked odd on top of a deeply tanned body.  Even competitors with black skins put on fake tan to enhance the definition in the muscles.  The female competitors reminded me of the child beauty pageants that you see in America, with the tan, the nails, the hair and the sparkle.  The men were all about show of strength so that when it came to them using extra time to have a ‘pose down’, there was loud music and they all clustered at the front of the stage by the judges in a competitive manner, jostling for the best position.  Meanwhile, the same request of the females meant that they shuffled awkwardly a little then struck more feminine poses and smiled brightly.  An interesting observation.

I was surprised by my reaction to the show.  There are two parts to each competition: the compulsory posing section where they go through a range of poses, seen from all sides so that the muscles definition can be seen clearly.  There can be several rounds of this as they move competitors around in order for the judges to see all of them.  The second section is the routine.  It depends on the federation as to what they do, and how they judge it.  There is a definite difference for male and female competitors.  At the BNBF, the females had to do a T-walk: enter the stage in the middle at the back, walk forward then go left and back, right and back to the middle, all set to music.  In high heels. Part of the judging is on how elegantly they complete this walk and is in addition to the posing at each stop.  Males do a routine of their choice of poses to music, and can come on and go off stage in any manner.  It seemed rather sexist to insist on the females wearing high heels and judging them on elegance.  It reinforced the stereotypical response of female bodybuilders having to be feminine as well as well defined.  One of the rules can be that women are required to be muscular, lean and hard yet feminine, attractive and ‘soft’.  Therefore they have to be both ‘athlete’ and ‘woman’, whereas it appears that males only have to be athletes.  This was stated by B.Christine Shea in the paper The Paradox of Pumping Iron: Female Bodybuilding as Resistance and Compliance.  The constant display of muscles became overwhelming at times, and the jockeying for position among the male competitors on ‘pose down’ more amusing as they pulled faces along with poses.  The females in comparison showed each other respect and space but that in itself made me think that they were taking it all very seriously, perhaps a little too seriously.  I don’t really know how it would be possible to level the field and make male and female competitions more universal.

I had several conversations with Kelley about her motivations for doing bodybuilding which is an extension of the kind of gym programme that I follow myself, albeit to an extreme extent.   She is very driven to succeed and her life focusses on the outcome which is placing in the top three of the heats and then going on to compete in the final with a view to winning.  The diet seems to be the overriding factor in her training as she carefully control her intake to maximise the good food to fuel her exercise.  She trains with heavy weights and does a lot of cardiovascular work such as steady state workout on a treadmill for 30 minutes or more.  Diet is paramount and if she succumbs to a craving for something not on her plan, that can affect her attitude to how well she is doing.  While she is very proud of her achievements, there is also a reluctance to relax and switch off after the show in case she loses her physique.  It appears to be a double edged sword.  I admit that I was fascinated by what makes people do this sort of thing and imagined that it requires a lot of confidence to get up on stage wearing very little.  My perception was of very muscled women to the point that they are more like men, and that is where I think I followed a ‘safe’ path in choosing to focus on Kelley who competes in a Physique class rather than heavyweight classes.  At both shows that I attended, there were a lot of male competitors and after a while I became detached from the people that they could be and saw only the time spent training in the gym, eating different diets to their families and practising aggressive poses.  This is not something that will make them money, it is something that they do outside of work and families.  But then again, is it any different to other pastimes that require a lot of time and energy to do it to competitive levels?  It does seem an extreme way to control your body.

I am glad to be moving on now and away from this as I have been thinking about it and living with it for months now.  I am not going down the route of bodybuilding as I like my food too much and I don’t like routine so it really isn’t for me, but I have admiration for those who do commit time and effort to do it and for getting up on a stage and showing off the months of hard work.  No different to an Olympic athlete or professional cyclist say, although without the same recognition.